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Modelers Lounge => How's it going? => Topic started by: andonio64 on December 16, 2021, 11:01:53 PM
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This is the name of my beloved wife (we have been together since 2004) who didn't make it and passed away on November 22 at 3 AM after a couple of heart strokes and finally a lung cancer diagnosis in september 2020.
It's nearly a month now and I still can't believe it, and although I do my best to get along with my life it's really hard and everyday things seem now to be meaningless.
She would have celebrated her 60th birthday on new year's eve and we had a lot of projects for our lives trying to look beyond this horrible ordeal.
She was an ER doctor, she has saved a lot of lives with her colleagues, and she was totally aware of the severity of her disease, but you know, when she showed me the statistics about survival I was not looking at that dark 95% of people not making it, I just hoped she would have been in the 5% remainder... I kept digging that illusion and kept assisting her 24 hrs a day in everything I was able to do but it was not enough.
Of course I have not yet gone back to the workbench, I will as soon as I find some positive energy, now I just let the pain flow and wait for time to heal me.
I love you all and I feel you are like a second family and reading your marvellous build logs I feel relieved until I turn the PC off again.
Thanks
Antonio
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I didn't know Tiziana, but I know you. And so this news hits me right in the heart and makes me sad.
I hope you will get better with time and that you will have someone around you to support you during the coming Christmas season!
And not even 60, that's no age! I'm close to it myself, so it shows all the more not to put things on the back burner but to live your life now - every day today so that yesterday becomes envious. No one knows what the future holds for them.
My thoughts are with you,
Frank
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Le mie più sincere condoglianze, una perdita incalcolabile.
Un abbraccio
Giuseppe
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My deepest condolences on this horrible loss, Antonio. I wish you all the best and all the strength you need to heal.
Also my thoughts are with you,
Andreas
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Antonio,
I am saddened to hear of your loss and can say that I know just how you are feeling; I suffered the same loss some 35 years ago in late November of 1986. Be brave as I see you are being and believe me when I say the time will come when you will feel meaning in your life again; it will take some time but it will happen. Dwell on the precious good time you had with Tiziana, she sounds a wonderful and courageous Lady. Like Frank has indicated it is a hard time of the year to bear this burden so find support in Family and Friends.
You will be in my thoughts and I feel your pain, be confident though that it will get a tiny bit less painful after time to heal.
Lance
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I didn't know Tiziana, but I know you. And so this news hits me right in the heart and makes me sad.
I hope you will get better with time and that you will have someone around you to support you during the coming Christmas season!
And not even 60, that's no age! I'm close to it myself, so it shows all the more not to put things on the back burner but to live your life now - every day today so that yesterday becomes envious. No one knows what the future holds for them.
My thoughts are with you,
Frank
Thank you Frank, I agree with you, at the moment I still feel dazed, it's very diffiuclt to imagine my life beyond this point but life is there and must be lived, I just need some time to recover from the shock. Moreover I have a lot of people around me that have shown ao much love and nearness and this is a valid support, las but not least the words I am getting from you and other fellow forumites really add comfort.
Antonio
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Le mie più sincere condoglianze, una perdita incalcolabile.
Un abbraccio
Giuseppe
Grazie Giuseppe, grazie davvero
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My deepest condolences on this horrible loss, Antonio. I wish you all the best and all the strength you need to heal.
Also my thoughts are with you,
Andreas
Thank you Andreas
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Antonio,
I am saddened to hear of your loss and can say that I know just how you are feeling; I suffered the same loss some 35 years ago in late November of 1986. Be brave as I see you are being and believe me when I say the time will come when you will feel meaning in your life again; it will take some time but it will happen. Dwell on the precious good time you had with Tiziana, she sounds a wonderful and courageous Lady. Like Frank has indicated it is a hard time of the year to bear this burden so find support in Family and Friends.
You will be in my thoughts and I feel your pain, be confident though that it will get a tiny bit less painful after time to heal.
Lance
Lance I am sorry hearing your story but reading about your experience gives me a bit of additional hope and confidence and I know time will help, yes, this is the worst season of the year to be loaded with this burden but, as I said to Frank, I have the rest of the family and several real friends around me and very close, this will help.
Antonio
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Please accept my deepest condolences Antonio. I will
remember your dear wife in my prayers...and you
my friend. Your friends are all with you in this sad
time.
Ernie
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Please accept my deepest condolences Antonio. I will
remember your dear wife in my prayers...and you
my friend. Your friends are all with you in this sad
time.
Ernie
Thank you so much Ernie
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Le mie più sincere condoglianze, Antonio
in queste circostanze non ci sono parole
un abbraccio
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Please accept my condolences
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My condolences to you and your family Antonio.
Andrew
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Antonio
I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your wife and wish there was something we could do to help you cope with the pain and the grief of her passing. Please know that your Forum friends send our most sincere condolences to you for Tiziana's loss and we are here if you need comfort in your grief.
I wish there was something more I could do but I hope the support and friendship of your Forum friends can be of some help to you in this time of indescribable sorrow.
My most sincere condolences to you.
Dave Wilson
Gold Coast
Australia
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God bless you, Andonio. I can only imagine the grief you experiencing. My prayers are with you, my friend.
With my deepest condolences,
Bud
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Le mie più sincere condoglianze, Antonio
in queste circostanze non ci sono parole
un abbraccio
Grazie ermeio, ricambio l'abbraccio.
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God bless you, Andonio. I can only imagine the grief you experiencing. My prayers are with you, my friend.
With my deepest condolences,
Bud
My condolences to you and your family Antonio.
Andrew
Please accept my condolences
Thanks guys, I really feel a bit better reading your words, again I feel you as part of my enlarged family!
Antonio
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Antonio
I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your wife and wish there was something we could do to help you cope with the pain and the grief of her passing. Please know that your Forum friends send our most sincere condolences to you for Tiziana's loss and we are here if you need comfort in your grief.
I wish there was something more I could do but I hope the support and friendship of your Forum friends can be of some help to you in this time of indescribable sorrow.
My most sincere condolences to you.
Dave Wilson
Gold Coast
Australia
Thank you Dave for your thought, unfortunately we live so far away from each other, I woudl come at each of you for a real hug...
By the way, as I said, I really feel better feeling you all so close and, Dave your work in administrating this forum helps not onlly to become better ww1 modelers but also to get this kind of help.
I love you all
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Andonio
I have only just seen this as I do not usually get this far down on the index page.
I am very sorry indeed to read your devastating news, particularly of someone who clearly has given so much to you and others. Sadly I too am unable to be close to listen to or be with you: instead i can only reassure you that you are in my thoughts and hoping that given time and space you will be able to regain your equilibrium and start to live life again as your wife would have wished.
My very sincere condolences to you and I await your return to the forum when you feel able to join us again.
Stephen.
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Antonio,
Please accept my deepest condolences for you loss.
Kevin in Port Orchard, WA. USA
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Stephen, Kevin, I express you my gratitude for your nearness, although we can't meet or even see each other. believe me, it helps.
Antonio
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I am humbled by your willingness to share the pain you must have. I'm glad this forum can provide some distraction for you and be an extended family. Keep your loved ones close and enjoy the memories together. Your wife clearly enriched the world with her profession and your life with her love. Stay safe, stay strong, stay in touch.
Steve
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I am so sorry to hear this - deepest condolences on your loss
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Thanks from the heart Steve and Patrick.
Antonio
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Terrible news, Antonio
So sorry for the loss of your beautiful wife.
Keep in touch with us all on the forum
Best wishes
Regards
Dave
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Sincere condolences for your terrible loss, my friend.
Your beloved wife will always live on within you. You will always be able to talk to her and although she may not be able to talk back she will always be there for you.
Sandy
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My most sincere condolence, Andonio... May your wife find peace in Paradise and you - a consolation here on earth.
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Hi Dave, Sandy and Przemol, thanks for your participation to my pain, each of your messages contribute.
Antonio
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I’m so sorry to hear about your loss and it’s a really difficult time. My father died at 59 on December 7 and while the loss of your life partner is at a more intense level I do understand your pain and can only commiserate with you through this post. My mum (who was 9 years younger) took some time to recover ( and to be honest there is sadness still) but life will reassert itself and healing will start with time. Take care and remember there are lots of people thinking of you. Cheers Matt
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My sincere condolences on the loss of Tiziana, Antonio. It is indeed so hard as she has been so close to you. Regards, Marc.
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Thanks Matt and Marc for your kind words, they're not just words.
Antonio
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I have just seen this and want to add My condolences for your loss. I can't imagine what you are feeling but know that you are in My thoughts.
RAGIII
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Thank you Rick!
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My deep condolences and prayers.
Ed
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Hello Antonio,
I have hesitated for a long time to write something here because I can't come up with anything adequate to offer words of comfort in your situation.
In these dark times, when we have to live constantly between apocalypse and "going to work", such a loss is felt all the more intensely.
I hope you can draw strength from your hobbies, sports, work or friends to carry on and not sink into darkness.
Yours,
Manni
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Thanks Ed.
Manni, your words are more than appreciated, yes, I try not to sink into darkness, and have several friends and our family around me to support and help with meaningful comfort, but when I turn out the lights everything comes back to my mind and a deep sadness takes over, I know time will make the work, and living on is the only thing I can do and it is what I'm doing now.
I have something on mybench but there's not yet me there, I will sit back there in the next days...
Thanks again to everybody
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Antonio ,
I very sad to learn of this news , you are in my thoughts and prayers .
Alexis
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Thank you so much Alexis
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Antonio, I'm another who hasn't commented but has followed this thread with great sadness and sympathy for you. I cannot imagine how it feels to lose your life partner and, as Manni said, it's so hard to know what to say. But know that my very best wishes and warm thoughts go out to you and know that we're all here for you.
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Antonio,
I only just now saw this. My heart goes out to you, and you have my full sympathies and condolences. You and your Tiziana are the same age as my wife and me, I can only imagine what it's going to be like when I lose her.
Prayers for you my friend.
WD
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Antonio, I'm another who hasn't commented but has followed this thread with great sadness and sympathy for you. I cannot imagine how it feels to lose your life partner and, as Manni said, it's so hard to know what to say. But know that my very best wishes and warm thoughts go out to you and know that we're all here for you.
Antonio,
I only just now saw this. My heart goes out to you, and you have my full sympathies and condolences. You and your Tiziana are the same age as my wife and me, I can only imagine what it's going to be like when I lose her.
Prayers for you my friend.
WD
Thank you friends
:-)
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Antonio,
I read about your wife’s passing just now, and I want to let you know that I am deeply sorry for your loss. And at such a young age!
In these hard times I wish you much strength and it is good to hear that you have a lot of people around you that have shown so much love.
Hopefully time will allow you to find the meaning in your life again and the spirit to get back to modeling and find comfort in the warm company of your fellow modelers here.
Willem
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Thank you from my heart Willem, your words are so warm and I feel it's nnever too late to receiving them.
Antonio
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Hi Antonio,
Somehow I had missed this news, I admire your openness! I wish you all the strength and best for your new and unfortunate situation. Last november my mother (aged just 65) passed away after a long illness, leaving my dad (and us) with an entirely different future after my parents retired.
I wish you all the strength and am glad for you to have people around you!
Take care,
Jeroen
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Hi Antonio,
Somehow I had missed this news, I admire your openness! I wish you all the strength and best for your new and unfortunate situation. Last november my mother (aged just 65) passed away after a long illness, leaving my dad (and us) with an entirely different future after my parents retired.
I wish you all the strength and am glad for you to have people around you!
Take care,
Jeroen
Thank you Jeroen, thanks for your words, I appreciate them. I am sad to know about your mother and I feel you father should be in a situation very similar to mine. Stay close to him and help him bearing this heavy burden. It's not easy, after a whole life spent together...
All the best to you and your family
Antonio
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Hi Antonio! We are still thinking of you, just wondering how it's going? We're sending good wishes, as always! Regards, Marc
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Thank you Antonio -my father is one of those people who cannot sit still and is always busy doing something. :)
He does admit it's the toughest when e.g. there is a birthday where he visits, but then travels home alone to arrive in an empty house...
Take care and best wishes!
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Thanks guys, I am doing well enough, phisically speaking I am OK, although in my mind the wound is not yet healed, I guess it will take longer and then a scar will remain, but in the meanwhile I am working hard to overcvome it and to bring on the life.
On my workbench is a Supermarine s6B Airfix 1/72 floatplane - Schneider Trophy, it stopped in November, I will take it back as soon as possible, I'll show it here when done.
Thanks again for taking care, you're an invaluable "bunch" of friends.
Antonio
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On my workbench is a Supermarine s6B Airfix 1/72 floatplane - Schneider Trophy, it stopped in November, I will take it back as soon as possible, I'll show it here when done.
That sounds like a great project to het back into things, Andonio. Know that there's a lot of people around the world who are with you in spirit.
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Hello Antonio
Please be assured your friends in the WW1 aircraftmodels community are with you every day to offer what comfort, support and friendship we can to help you through your grieving.
The Airfix Supermarine S6B kit is one that I remember making many years ago. It would be wonderful if Airfix gave us a new tool kit, in both 1/72 and 1/48 scales.
Please show us your work on the kit.
Sending you the very warmest of regards
Dave Wilson
Gold Coast
Australia
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On my workbench is a Supermarine s6B Airfix 1/72 floatplane - Schneider Trophy, it stopped in November, I will take it back as soon as possible, I'll show it here when done.
That sounds like a great project to het back into things, Andonio. Know that there's a lot of people around the world who are with you in spirit.
Thank you very much Zac, I had no doubt I was in a great group of fellows from all over the world, I feel all of you so close to me and I am to you, I think - and hope - I will sit back to the bench by the end of next week.
Thanks again and again to everybody!
Andonio
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I had no doubt I was in a great group of fellows from all over the world, I feel all of you so close to me and I am to you, I think - and hope - I will sit back to the bench by the end of next week.
That gave me a big, big smile :)